Erin just got home from church and was telling me about one of her friends who is in a pity party for herself after having just turned 31 and getting the boot out of the single's ward. Combine that with Mother's Day and you have a single sister wreck on your hands. So, I am not going to be a single sister train-wreck, even though I ate my dinner meal alone, listening to John Rutter Christmas music and watching the rain fall in sad drizzly drips, like the tears dripping out of my heart of the sadness of being 28 and not having any little sippy cups to fill up, creamed carrots to wipe off the floor, and boogers to suck out of a nose with that plastic siphon-thing. :) In honor of Mother's Day and in celebration of womanhood I made a delicious dinner for myself-one that Mossie, Ruth Beaver, Gramma Bruneel, and Deb Fox would be proud of. Later when Erin came home, while pushing a forkful of chicken and green beans to her mouth she said, "I think the spirit of Ruth Beaver has been with us."
My Bishop reminded us all today that some people won't have the opportunity for marriage, "Thanks, I've never heard that before, thanks for pointing that out. I appreciate the reminder." Ha Ha. :) I'm convinced that the desire for marriage and family isn't any different than any other unfulfilled desire: many people want to find someone so they're not lonely anymore and it doesn't happen, or it does and then they want children and they can't have any, or their kids have health problems, or they lose their job and all their money...and on and on...nobody ever gets what they want when they think they should get it, and nobody's life goes exactly as planned...
...Anways, I'm grateful for what my life is now, and it wouldn't be so great if I didn't have my Mom (or Dad). Happy Mother's Day to everyone, single, widowed, or married-alike!
My herb garden (btw) is fantastic. It consists of 3 plants: rosemary, cilantro, and italian parsley. Sometimes I parse Italian to the parsley to help it grow better, I think it works.
(sorry, couldn't resist)
3 comments:
I loved this post. I think you said it so well. Your dinner looks delicious. I was laughing about Erin's comment that Ruth's spirit had been with you. You are the best.
Thanks for writing about hard stuff. I love your thoughts and how you put them into positive action.
Can't wait to see you in a few...Mom
you made me cry... i just happened to be in my own pity party after reading that andrea mccoy is pregnant, again and that my brother´s wife beth is pregnant... and i am on my pyramid again, no growing baby to get excited about, and still no sippy cups to fill. youre right we dont get the things we want when we want them but theres just got to be reason. i keep asking god what it is i am supposed to be learning from this trial? and i keep praying that i dont end up being one of those couples that never has their own children. its hard and i am feeling it. thanks for the post.
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